Yay!

Well I have been away for a little while! So so much has happened!!

On a really sad note i lost my nan in June which has been so hard to cope with :( We all miss her so much 

The only thing that keeps me from breaking down each and every day is that she is happy now, no longer in pain and with my Aunty again, they have alot to catch up on so I know she is in a better place. 

ON a much brighter note, the day before her funeral i GOT A POSITIVE pregnancy test! YES i can finally say the words IM PREGNANT!! I know in my heart 100% that my Nan left me one last gift before she left us, she knew everything was going to be ok and she has blessed me with a part of her that will live on forever. I have a big feeling that its going to be a girl, a if it is i will def be incorporating my nans name within hers. I will forever have a smile on my face knowing that she has done this for us, after 16 hard months of trying and 2nd cycle of clomid, And by dates having falling 'pregnant' around the day before she passed it is my little gift i will cherish from her

So i am due end of Feb approx my dates on my u/s are showing a little less then my cycle dates so will have a def due date by next week :) :) :) 

Soo excited!!! Cant wait to check in again and keep the updates coming!! YAY For babies!!

IM BACK

WOW so good to be online again!!
3 weeks with no internet connection has driven me crazy! soo Much to catch up on!

Where do i start?!?!?!?!?

OH YES I OVULATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Had my doc appointment yesterday and he told me the lovely news. first time since having my daughter. and first cycle on clomid and ba bing i ovulate :) :) lets just hope we did the dance in time and the swimmers reached the finish line hey ;) will know by the end of the week if its positive or negative WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



We moved into the new house .
Love it!
love the space , love my new furniture
love selenas new found freedom
but

hate the cleaning
cleaning
cleaning
cleaning
blah!!

will have to sit back later in the day or tomo and keep posting :) so much to tel you all!!
for now im going to catch up on all your blogs pics and news !!!
xxx

work shmirk

well the time has come and i have decided to have a guinea pig for my Marketing i would like to start doing from home!
it will only be a small amount of $ and i will only work how much i want to, well its only 1 client so far LOL so i cant do too much :)
I am hoping that this goes well and i get her a lot of new clients and i make some $$ in the meantime, then i can start setting up space in my new house to open up to new business.. I still have a lot of prep to do beforehand like a new computer printer equipment and general materials etc but I WILL GET THERE!
It  does feel good to be hopefully adding to the income of the household BUT i still class myself as a SAHM which is my full intentions and i am just going to get some work done in my spare time :)
I never intended on returning to work, i want to be the sole carer for my kids and be here for them all the time. But my creative mind and ideas for people and their business gets the better of me!
Hope i do well with this one !! WISH ME LUCK!!

more reasons for daniel to smile to!! he can hopefully work a little less :)

WOW Cant believe that soon (like a week or 2) We will be moved out of our townhouse.

The place we painted a room pink, we set up a nursery, i crawled up stairs

9 months pregnant. the place we brought our precious daughter home to for the first time.

the new house :) :) :)

I have had a few teary moments over this. how do u lock the door for the last time knowing that selena will never be able to walk through the room that was once her nursery?

bye bye townhouse!

Selenas nursery needs to be all packed up :(

ahh but in saying this, we are opening our doors to our new home. a bigger and

BETTER place with like 3 times the space :) all fresh and ready to make new memories, set up a new room for our toddler (OMG toddler,still weird saying that instead of baby) and one day soon hopefully making a new nursery for a new baby! !

oh the moments to come, scary but so exciting and fresh !

so much change but for the better!

this is making my frown into a smile :)

in need of some R and r

well today has been a lil messed up... buttt i got some much needed packing done FINALLY!

actually found some time to do a bit of a workout, the Kim K dvd's are becoming my friend and hoping they can make my ass at least one - two sizes smaller :)

so instead of going out for a bbq at my mums place with the entire family tonight.. (which can be to full on at times)

I'm going to stay at home. Get missy to bed nice and early, have a glass of something and watch a girlie movie :)

daniels working nights so the house will be so quiet which is an odd sound. Well if Valentina stays quiet fingers crossed x

SO a night for me :) a night alone.. much needed !! i can get into bed.. spread out. relax and enjoy my sleep!

ahh the thought of this is just bliss !! BRING ON night time i say :)

frustrated at the least.

Why do things always seem to go wrong at once?

Why does everything seem to happen to us?

Why do i allow myself to get stressed silly?

from not falling prego, to our tenants being absolute nightmares, to settlement approaching in 7 days and we dont know were we are moving to. piled on stop with recently quitting the fags. i dont know how on earth i am coping emotionally and physically. my body is also suffering from the stress. i think ive earned a whole new roll thanks to my emotional eating and laziness.

i just wish there was an easy fix to every issue. i wish i could blink and it would all seam to iron itself out. but no, i can and it wont. i need to find the motivation to arrange so much, get off my ass and pack this house up to move to an unknown location. so far i have done nothing this week, i look at the house n think where do i start. what do i do? pack this to then put it where? im going mentally blank right now. i wouldnt even class myself as insane as i dont think id even be able to find the motivation to be "insane".

what i would love to do, is go to bed tonight, wake up to a phone call in the morning from the real estate saying the keys have been handed in. SO then we can move in this weekend and problemo solved.

im dreaming right, i can only hope. hope is what is keeping me going. oh and chocolate

So the Journey Begins

How can i actually be excited about expecting a period?

Who on earth looks forward to that?

ME!

I'm due to get my period in around 2 weeks. That means I will be starting a new cycle

day 1 of the cycle means only 2 more days till day 3 which is my first round of CLOMID DAY!

I'm pretty much that excited that I could just sleep for 2 weeks and make it hurry up already!